Sometimes it seems like we're all living in some kind of prison, and the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It's good to get really dressed up once in a while, and admit the truth -- that when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually...beautiful. Possibly even me.
--Angela Chase, My So Called Life
Have you guys ever seen that show My So Called Life? I've been watching it on Netflix Instant lately (well, until the stupid PlayStation Network took a dump and will be out until the end of MAY are you serious thisis2011forchrissake?!!?!!!?!?!?!!111 Grmph!!!! ::brain explosion::)
I love that show.Love, love, love. It was on and I was the same age as the characters, and I was Angela Chase to the n-th degree. Right down to the flannels. Watching that show, reading that quote, it just reminds me of such a specific time in my life. That angst-ridden, hyper-emotional, flannel-clad time in my life. I don't feel that way about myself now, but oh god did I feel that way at 15. I remember talking to my nephew last summer (he was 14 at the time) and I remember telling him about how I felt as a teenager. I told him that I wish I had just felt I was beautiful, but maybe it's best I didn't. Nothing worse than some snot nosed teenage girl who knows she's pretty (I'm looking at you 16 and Pregnant and all that other swill on MTV).
xoxo,
